I am usually against handing out money to homeless panhandlers on the street. I never really give them a second look and always figure they can go get help at the shelters I donate to. That was my same reaction when I first saw this elder gentlemen at the corner of the street where I work. His sign said “Vietnam Vet, need help until next disability check.” I watch him as I stopped at the red light. Vietnam vets always touch a soft spot in my heart because I am very grateful to all the soldiers who fought for our democracy. In fact, I admire all marine/navy/air force men and women.
Anyway as I watched him, he seem like he’s healthy. He didn’t seem to be suffering too much so I drove home guiltless.
I saw him again today and watch him again while I wait on the red light. Today his t-shirt is drenched in sweat because it’s a hot day out. I noticed a little veteran card he attached to a corner of his sign and that touch my heart. First because I have deep respect for Vietnam vet as I mentioned above. Second is because he took the effort to attach his card trying to prove to people that he’s not really con man. He looks like a normal older gentlemen. By normal I meant he doesn’t look like he’s drunk, no glassy eyes to show that he’s on drug. He’s overall a clean cut man so why the disability? Maybe something mental perhaps? The look on his face is of someone who is defeated.
I made the decision to roll down my window and give him 4 $1 bills. He looks grateful as he received my money but that could be gratefulness for drug money or for alcohol..who knows. I don’t feel any better doing so nor any worst. If he’s a man who really needs help then I don’t feel that I’ve done enough. I just hope God watches over him if I had failed.
